I've hit a wall

Ok so maybe I haven't actually hit a wall but I sure have felt like it these past few days, yes it's true I have writer's block isn't it strange one minute your head could be full of ideas but the second you put pen to paper your mind goes blank as if someone has deleted everything in your head. How frustrating is that? 

I hate having an idea and then not know how to word it, it feels like I have a black hole between my mind and hand sucking every idea from my brain. I have a habit of taking out my frustration out on something oh yes I have thrown my pen across the room, ripped up pages from my notebook, I have ran my hand through my hair so many times I look like I've been dragged through a hedge backwards and I also take my frustration out on people snapping at them for no reason, in my defence though not many people understand how extremely frustrating writer's block can be. The question I get asked the most is "How can you not know what to say?" I stare at them blankly and say "Have you never not known what you want to say?" and they reply "Well of course but only when it's something important not like a blog or a book"

That is what I don't get about some people they don't know how important a blog or a book can be to someone it's way to express yourself when you are not sure what to say, it's a way to feel more confident than you do in your day to day life and in a way it can feel like your child because you pour so much of yourself into it and it starts as such a little thing and then you get to watch it grow everyday. 

Now this isn't the first time I've had writer's block and it certainly won't be the last, what you have to remember is to not let it get the best of you when I look back at the first drafts of my book and fan fiction I can tell which bits I wrote while trying to battle writer's block. I see it mainly in my filler chapters where I can see where my characters are going but not quite sure on how to get them there and when I have wrote it I look at it and think "Not bad not my best work but it will do I guess"

I need to stop doing that now obviously I'm not going to write a masterpiece on my first try, no matter how much I wish I could, I need to realise that I shouldn't write something and keep it that way just because I can't think of another way to word it that time because it doesn't mean I won't find a better way to write it the next time. 

I see writer's block as I brick wall one you have to break through to get to the other side and sure I get knocked back quite a few times but I always get back on my feet and try again, of course it is nice to take a break and forget about writing for a while but the important thing to remember is that you don't stop trying to break through that wall. 

Don't let the fear of being knocked down stop you from trying to break through the wall because one day I promise you will break down that wall.

Heather 

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I'm going on an adventure

Finally back in the right world where I belong. I've just had to deal with the small mindedness of some people, who say I need to get my head out of the clouds and live in the real world. Some people just don't understand why I read and write so much, sure they read but not like I do they don't see the characters as their friends or the places as their homes, I guess to them books are just a way to pass the time. People say books are torture and yes that's true, they make you want to live in that world but imagine if you could whether you want to go to Hogwarts, solve mysteries with your favorite detective or go through your wardrobe to Narnia. Right now I'm on an adventure to claim back the lonely mountain  from Smaug the terrible, I'm travelling in the company of Thorin Oakenshield and his kin, Bilbo Baggins and Gandalf the grey. Bilbo and I have just caught up the Thorin and company, Bilbo is complaining about forgetting his handkerchief, I chuckle to myself at the sight of Bilbo on his pony drowning the green hood and cloak that Dwalin has lent him as the hobbit has left his, along with his handkerchief, at home as I ride along side them I wonder if all hobbits are forgetful or is it just Bilbo. I can't help but look at the wonderful world around me, where such things as hobbits, dwarves, wizards  and that the adventure is to slay a dragon. I sometimes forget how much freedom comes with writing a book for example if you want someone to fly then they can fly, if you want a character to be good with a sword they become worthy of a place as a knight of the round table and if you want the sky to change colour every five minutes then it can, the possibilities are endless. When it comes to your characters they can be anyone you want, the girl you hated at high school has become the Wicked Queen and the boy you like but you are too shy to say anything to him becomes your Prince Charming.
When I write I'll use people I don't know sometimes I use their personality for one of my characters or my characters may have a conversation I overheard on a bus or in a coffee shop. My main point of inspiration is my friends who always wind up splattered in the pages of my book, though I normally use my friends as the heroes I sometimes use them as the villains not because they are evil or cruel just sometimes their personalities match. My friend Nat for example I use some of the things he says for my villain as I can hear their voice when he talks, his mannerisms as well are very good for a villain. One thing I have learnt in books that seems ever constant is that all magic comes with a price for example at the stroke of midnight Cinderella's dress turns back into rags and the once beautiful carriage becomes a pumpkin once more.

Sadly I must end this chapter here as I'm falling behind the dwarves, Bilbo and Gandalf and I fear that Thorin isn't a patient man and this adventure needs my undivided attention.
Before I go may I ask if you could live in one book, which one would it be? Leave your answers in the comments below I would love to know which book you would like to live in :)

Until next time
Heather
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