I've hit a wall

Ok so maybe I haven't actually hit a wall but I sure have felt like it these past few days, yes it's true I have writer's block isn't it strange one minute your head could be full of ideas but the second you put pen to paper your mind goes blank as if someone has deleted everything in your head. How frustrating is that? 

I hate having an idea and then not know how to word it, it feels like I have a black hole between my mind and hand sucking every idea from my brain. I have a habit of taking out my frustration out on something oh yes I have thrown my pen across the room, ripped up pages from my notebook, I have ran my hand through my hair so many times I look like I've been dragged through a hedge backwards and I also take my frustration out on people snapping at them for no reason, in my defence though not many people understand how extremely frustrating writer's block can be. The question I get asked the most is "How can you not know what to say?" I stare at them blankly and say "Have you never not known what you want to say?" and they reply "Well of course but only when it's something important not like a blog or a book"

That is what I don't get about some people they don't know how important a blog or a book can be to someone it's way to express yourself when you are not sure what to say, it's a way to feel more confident than you do in your day to day life and in a way it can feel like your child because you pour so much of yourself into it and it starts as such a little thing and then you get to watch it grow everyday. 

Now this isn't the first time I've had writer's block and it certainly won't be the last, what you have to remember is to not let it get the best of you when I look back at the first drafts of my book and fan fiction I can tell which bits I wrote while trying to battle writer's block. I see it mainly in my filler chapters where I can see where my characters are going but not quite sure on how to get them there and when I have wrote it I look at it and think "Not bad not my best work but it will do I guess"

I need to stop doing that now obviously I'm not going to write a masterpiece on my first try, no matter how much I wish I could, I need to realise that I shouldn't write something and keep it that way just because I can't think of another way to word it that time because it doesn't mean I won't find a better way to write it the next time. 

I see writer's block as I brick wall one you have to break through to get to the other side and sure I get knocked back quite a few times but I always get back on my feet and try again, of course it is nice to take a break and forget about writing for a while but the important thing to remember is that you don't stop trying to break through that wall. 

Don't let the fear of being knocked down stop you from trying to break through the wall because one day I promise you will break down that wall.

Heather 

xx